vanessa

2007-08-03T16:25:00.000+08:00

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine.
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

2007-08-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

A special world for you and me,
a special bond one cannot see.
It wraps us up in its cocoon,
and holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

2007-07-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

I stood at the bus stand, looking through the crystal droplets as I can

Each drop represented the time we’ve spent, and those we’ve dent.

The times we had comprised of the bad and the glad.

Whatever it was, I am still yours

Whatever it takes, I will never break.

I loved and love you,

Even if the world came crashing down on you,

I will still love you.

My arms are your possession, for I know my expression

This I tell you, that your heart will be at ease.

I love you sweetheart and the world will know,

You dwell in a place that only God can take you away

2007-07-26T09:47:00.001+08:00

If ever someone tells me you hate me,
i'll tell them what have i done that you need to lie.
If someone tells me you died,
i'll tell them i know she's in a safe place
If someone hates you,
he or she hates me as well
If someone points a knife at you,
i'll take the knife and stab myself and say
my love is in here, come and claim her.

2007-07-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

I looked up into the heavens, with eyes ablaze.
I shut my windows and i saw your face.
I stood there, telling you i care.
Brushing your hair, i kissed your lips.
A soft whisper i could hear, strengthening my heart for not to fear.
She is yours my child, do not tear in times of trial.
Open your eyes for i am here, i will make your life crystal clear.
I starred at you, saying darling, i love you.

2007-07-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

I have to write my heart out now before this day comes to an end. From the day i went into a relationship, i have NEVER ever experience a girl, also known as my girlfriend, satisfy me more than any form of words can describe, as what happened a few hours ago. Even with the largest name tag carver, or the world's finest felt pen, it can never engrave an unforgettable, magnificent vision i see whenever i shut my eyes. spent the day afternoon, holding her in my arms, at the peak of Mount Fabour. No words can be greater than this, no actions can be more significant than this, no sight can be seen more majestic than what i saw. I've seen the joy in her eyes, i've seen the love in her heart, i've felt the passion in her kiss, i've cried in her embrace. What on this earth, other than the love of such a person, can one with sin, failure accept such a heavenly, marvelous gift from God. I bow before the cross with honor and repentance, thanking Him, what a prodigious gift He has given me. With the only words of i love you can repay you for such a immeasurable, infinite love you've shown. Thank you darling. I LOVE YOU

2007-07-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

I looked out the window, closed my eyes and faced the wind.
i hummed a song of praise, with tears on my cheeks
i asked myself, why is this happening.
Maybe God put her in my life for a certain purpose.
it could because He wants me to learn something.
Day and night i figure, what's the best way
to carve a love that will last.
I'll lay my life before her, if that’s the only way
unless an alternative.
Anoint my lips, so that the words i speak
will touch her heart.

If ever one day, we are brought apart
remember what i tell you.
I was born to one day hold your hand,
to wrap my arms around you.
I was placed on this earth by the Almighty,
just to tell you how much
I love you.

2007-07-12T09:38:00.001+08:00

when i look into your eyes, i'm telling you you're mine.
when i hold you, i'm telling you i'll be here for you.
when i kiss you, i'm telling you're never alone.
when i hug you, i'm telling you i'll never let you fall.
whenever you leave me, i'll stand behind you looking at you,
telling you i'm watching you, looking after you, and in all, i do this to
tell you how much i love you.

2007-07-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

God, please help me.

2007-07-01T22:04:00.001+08:00

There is a girl who told me that she once liked me. The thing i saw in her was fun loving, kind, caring and true enough i fell for her. i knew her for quite some time already and finally i could feel that i had feelings for her, but she had someone in her heart. i was extremely sad when i heard her tell me she had someone else. How i wish she was in the same school as i am, unfortunately that couldn't take place. I told her i liked her way before i knew she liked someone but after hearing that, it left me no choice but had to fade my feelings for her unwillingly. After a while, i liked her silently and told everyone who knew i liked her previously that i had no feelings for her anymore. but i lied. Months past and nothing seemed to take place.

Don't be surprise if i tell you that girl is now someone whom i love and she belongs to me.
she is my darling.

2007-06-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

through love all that is bitter will be sweet
through love all the is copper will be gold
through love all dregs will turn to purest wine
through love all pain will turn to medicine
through love the dead will all become alive
through love i would be able to tell the world you are mine

2007-06-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

You know when she feels extremely sad or disappointed, how i wish i could hold her heart and comfort it, it's the only place that is hurting the most and worse of it all, i can't be there with her. My promise still stands, no matter what you're going through, i have made that promise and it shall be carved deep down into the hearts of hers and mine. As for now, before i head to slumber, i'll get down on my knees, look towards the cross and beg the Lord for the one and only person on this earth whom i love so so so so so so much, to be touch and comforted at any point of sadness or pain she feels, by His hands. His comforting hands, His soft voice and His gentle hug would be all i ask for. This is my prayer for tonight and God knows how much i would really want to see her cry tears of comfort and joy knowing that her God has heard my cries.

2007-06-18T23:20:00.001+08:00

Half or almost the whole of last week, spent it in the church camp also known as ignition. Gosh, it's the first time i'm being a group leader in church, seriously it ain't easy. but well, did manage to pull through it with the support of my one and only girl and the strength that God has given me at every step of my life, had a few from my friends here and there. i miss the times i spent worshiping with arms lifted high pointed in the direction towards the heavens. in my whole entire life, since the day God opened my eyes, i've never ever lifted my hands to worship, what a miracle.
now that school has started, have to get back to the studying mode. today, i made a promise, that i will grow up and get the money to provide for my girl, that she will not live a horrible life eating gruel everyday. I will work my way up to the PHD level and obtain the results to be able to provide for her. SO! God thank you for being there for me during my failures and passes. i know You are here when i'm typing this so You will strengthen me again and everything i do, it's for the glory of Your name, and of course for my darling, never forgetting you. i love you Jesus and i love you darling.

2007-06-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

2007-06-09T08:38:00.000+08:00

Monday
met her in the morning for breakfast, headed to tp and waited for her test to end and while doing that, i dropped by uncle leon's stall to steal food so that i could fill up my craving stomach with proteins, carbos and fiber.

Tuesday
about the same as the former day, went down to tp to wait for her test to end. about an hour worth of waiting but this time i dropped by the table at the design block and took advantage of the breeze and fell asleep. it's quite cool sleeping in a foreign environment and not know what can happen to you. after that we went down to the airport to 'kia kia', dear girl had to study, so sat down with her but now it wasn't the wind i took advantage of, it's the aircon. yeah.

Wednesday
this day, we met for breakfast at the coffee shop nearby the school. Had prata and a cup of tou nies. managed to sustain the hunger all the way to lunch and during lunch, we trained to the airport once more and had lunch at breeks. but it wasn't really considered lunch, the two huge eaters had devour their meals before that.

Thursday
Ah, thursday stands for the interesting day. a so called road trip we had. both of us spent a day walking around raffles and tanjong pagar area. GOSH, it was crazy boy! took pictures with a half dead camera but still managed to capture memories. hahaha.. walk walk and walk. crazy day i had with my dearest girl.

Friday
don't worry, it isn't the same as the day before. went for break fast with uncles and had dim sums steaming in a pot. high class food taken at a low class place. after that met darlings ats tampines MRT. we went for a movie at the cathay, the movie also known as ocean's 13. cool show, go catch it NOW! while stocks last. then watch another movie at a much higher class place, her house. in her shoes is the name of the second show and it lasted all the way to 5 plus, and then went over to siglap to return the CDs. next flew over to NTUC to grab groceries for dinner. we cooked over the stove for dinner. yeah, ate with sweetie's family.

thats all for the week. want more details please call 93372703

2007-05-25T11:19:00.000+08:00

my darling is a dancer! thank you God

2007-05-14T15:37:00.000+08:00

i just had a conversation with my friend concerning his girlfriend. i could totally relate his situation. He said that he felt hurt, that is obvious. it hurts because she has been dwelling in his heart for such a long time and something so precious left him and then i realized that she meant a lot to me, that she was, is and will be the only thing that i had, have and will keep so dearly in my heart. she is treasured every single second.
so friend pick yourself up and move on, one day you'll find someone true to you and she will be yours man.

2007-05-14T15:12:00.001+08:00

A marvelous afternoon yesterday was. i spent it with her at the top of a HDB flat, looking over the horizon and ahead of us was the sea view. it was just astonishingly incredible. all this time spent with her only makes me love her more and more. she has been a blessing, a gift and a guide. there is nothing else i would ask for, but just her.

2007-05-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

2007-05-07T09:53:00.002+08:00

when i first met you, i was afraid to talk to you and when i first talked to you, i was afraid to like you. when i began to like you, i was afraid to love you. And now that i have loved you, i am afraid to lose you.

2007-05-07T09:53:00.001+08:00

when i first met you, i was afraid to talk to you and when i first talked to you,

i was afraid to like you. when i began to like you, i was afraid to love you. And now
that i have loved you, i am afraid to lose you.

2007-05-07T09:53:00.000+08:00

when i first met you, i was afraid to talk to you and when i first talked to you,
i was afraid to like you. when i began to like you, i was afraid to love you. And now
that i have loved you, i am afraid to lose you.

2007-05-02T10:23:00.000+08:00

it's so so tough, painful and agonizing

2007-04-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

i think of you constantly, never once have you left my heart and mind. I long to be by your side, and i definately desire to see you.

2007-04-23T19:35:00.001+08:00

My class, is actually getting more and more fun. With crazy people in it, a definite out come of madness is a sure thing. At break times, can still go clubing, watch movie. craziness to the maximum. Today they went to club at MOS, too bad i didn't want to join them, have to think of my girlfriend, you know, so many girls went boy, so no way i'm going with chao bo's. They came back with red faces and stinging breathe. But still, i prefer being next to her, although i have a bunch of fun friends. so sad...

2007-04-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

2007-04-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

Whenever i trust someone, i get betrayed. why! i hate this feeling, where i put her in a difficult situation. people say i suck, i think i really do suck.

2007-04-19T08:57:00.000+08:00

God answers simple prayers so quickly, and tells you to wait for the others. I was alone in the bus on the way to school today, i looked up and i saw the grey heavy sky. Immediatly i thought of my girl, she was having games in school. i started praying for good weather so that she would have a great time in school, with faith i went to sleep. When i woke up, i saw the sun shinning and yes! my prayers were answered. Thank you God.

2007-04-18T15:08:00.000+08:00

She has once again made my day bright and happy.

2007-04-17T09:50:00.000+08:00

In school, i have plenty of time in my hands. Today, as i was on the way to school, i fell asleep in the cab, i had a prompting telling me to take care of her. I am not sure what exactly that meant. As i'm writing this, i'm thinking of the times i had with her, the times i spent with her. A feeling i've never experience in my whole relationship life. I believe God has a plan for me, and He has already brought me to the door step, and it's finally revealing. i pray that He will strenghten my thoughts and heart, that will keep me moving for the next 3 years. I thank God for her constant support, care and love.

2007-04-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

It all began on the 20th of nov, the day o levels ended, mark of freedom and enjoyment. It was the day after that i was travelling to indonesia, a 2 months vacation that i took all the way to 1st jan. Back then i had many things in mind, a constant question of should i or should not. There were many unsolved matters still lingering back and forth in my heart. Well, when i was up in indo, a relaxed state i was in, a facade would be the only way out, it left me no choice. All that occupied my mind was her. she dwelled in for a year, i've been talking to God since that very day. Moving on, it was a great holiday spent up in indo, albeit i longed to be with her, another choice that wasn't in my volition. I came back on the 1st of jan, i was shocked to see what came in via sms, it was her! She made my day, the unexpected message came in at a perfect time. That day was the start of getting to know her deeper. On and on i had great times spent with her.

Months passed and febuary came so soon, my relationship with God was made stronger in this month . He was with me ever single step of this journey, never leaving nor forsake me. I was brought to my lowest point of my life in this month. So many things had happen every since and i did not feel the presence of God at that time, thankfully she picked my faith up and did not allow me to fall. Thats the reason why God gave her to me, and i'm definately thankful for that gift. She has marked so many wonderful memories in my life, and believe it or not, nowadays, such girls are very and almost impossible to get. A gift has to be given for such girls to come by.

Now that it's the last few days of the holidays, my prayer still continues for the rest of my life till God decides to take me. The same prayer every since this journey began.

2007-04-09T23:34:00.000+08:00

If anyone would want to know what a brilliant vacation i had, i would tell them i have not only experienced a gorgeous holiday, i had an indescribable time spent wisely. The depth of this magnificent period could only be given by God. He has used her to provide me with such sincere love. A thank you would be a surface level mode of appreciation, i dedicate my life in understanding and building a closer relationship with God, and with His strength, she will be well taken care of.

2007-03-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

Many things has occured within such pronto timing. Awful and terrible have i come across, first it was about her, second it was the posting, third it was the admission. On the other hand, if it wasn't because of that one person, i would have given up in the beginning. When will God answer the one prayer i've been praying for, He has thought me perserverance, albeit the pain and agony, He has been with me at every single step of this trial. The bible states that the greatest thing is love, so what i want to give her is the greatest thing. Poly is about to begin, another challenge and tolerance is approaching. I pray a silent prayer, casting my burdens onto Gods hands, that He will keep us together.

2007-02-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

As i sit here
i search my heart, for the words to express my inner most thoughts.
my hands glides across the paper
In short strokes
it all seems so trivial and ordinary
compared to what i feel for you
i crumple the paper and start over
seeking for that word
that will say it all
that word that when you read it
you will instantly know how i feel.
its so close
i can almost touch it
its on the tip of my tongue
no matter how hard i search
it escapes me
i will have to be a thief
stealing age old words.
shared by millions
they are not original
But as i think of them
it feels as if i created them.
i treasure you as mine,
and i cherish you as a soul.
i long and desire to hold you near
for as many days as God allows me to breath
i immediately realize that my last thought as i write this
was the same as my very first.
i started this letter because i love you
i sought for words to express that
but decided to choose
the three very words
that have been chosen for centuries
are simply
i love you
and i do
and forever i will.

2007-02-23T23:19:00.001+08:00

As i sit here
i search my heart, for the words to express my inner most thoughts.
my hands glides across the paper
In short strokes
it all seems so trivial and ordinary
compared to what i feel for you
i crumple the paper and start over
seeking for that word
that will say it all
that word that when you read it
you will instantly know how i feel.
its so close
i can almost touch it
its on the tip of my tongue
no matter how hard i search
it escapes me
i will have to be a thief
stealing age old words.
shared by millions
they are not original
But as i think of them
it feels as if i created them.
i treasure you as mine,
and i cherish you as a soul.
i long and desire to hold you neay
for as many days as God allows me to breath
i immediately realize that my last thought as i write this
was the same as my very first.
i started this letter because i love you
i sought for words to express that
but decided to choose
the three very words
that have been chosen for centuries
are simply
i love you
and i do
and forever i will.

2007-02-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

As i sit here
i search my heart, for the words to express my inner most thoughts.
my hands glides across the paper
In short strokes
it all seems so trivial and ordinary
compared to what i feel for you
i crumple the paper and start over
seeking for that word
that will say it all
that word that when you read it
you will instantly know how i feel.
its so close
i can almost touch it
its on the tip of my tongue
no matter how hard i search
it escapes me
i will have to be a thief
stealing age old words.
shared by millions
they are not original
But as i think of them
it feels as if i created them.
i treasure you as mine,
and i cherish you as a soul.
i long and desire to hold you neay
for as many days as God allows me to breath
i immediately realize that my last thought as i write this
was the same as my very first.
i started this letter because i love you
i sought for words to express that
but decided to choose
the three very words
that have been chosen for centuries
are simply
i love you
and i do
and forever i will.

2007-02-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

How can you ache and crave for someone's touch
when you have never felt it.
I do this for yours, though
and the yearning grows more each day.

I have never wanted anything in my life
as much as i want you.
When you whisper such sweet love
in my ear when we talk

I breathe in so hard
trying to catch my breath when we can't talk
I close my eyes so tight
hoping when i open them you will be there.

but i know i have to wait
until the time is right
it seems so far
that i think i'm losing my mind.

I want to breathe in your scent
and keep it with me all day long
i want to taste your love for me
by kissing your sweet lips

i want to feel you next to me
so when you leave for a while i can hold on
I just want you to know
that i really do love you.

when the day come and we are together
you will always know and feel this
i will always hug, kiss and love you
ever moment of the day and night

you will never have another touch unfelt.

2007-02-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

why are all this things happening to me.

2007-02-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

it was i who found you, i had fallen in love with you.
it was i who told you how much i love you.
You told me that time was in the picture,
you too told me that i had to hover.
loving you would be the one truth that i cannot lie.
telling you i will wait, would be the test of my love towards you.
Our relationship would consist of 100 steps, and 99 of them would
be i who will run to you.

2007-01-31T23:10:00.001+08:00

My love towards you is a permanient madness,
It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work our wether your roots have become entwined
together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.
Because this is what love is.
love is not breathlessness, it is not excitementm it is not
the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. that is just being
"in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away.
and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
I hope you and i have this, that we would have roots that grow
towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom
had fallen from our brunches, we will find that we are one tree and not two

2007-01-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

2007-01-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

Save me

2007-01-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

You are she whom i place my heart with,

you are she whom i have loved from the very start.

Patience have driven me to endure,

God has empowered me with such stamina.

Father i pray a prayer,

pleading for forgiveness.

Take this agony from deep within me,

You hear my cries, You wipe them dry.

I thank You for making me a stronger person.

I submit her into Your hands,

praying that You will return her to me

and thats when i know she will be mine.

and a gift from You.

2007-01-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

My sweetest one, now i call on you
i have never loved as i love you.
If you cannot give your heart to me,
i will still and ever love thee.

My hand is weary,
i am thinking about you every hour
not a second goes by; i know not why
unless i am holding you.

Answer me and say you care.
my darling one, thou art so fair,
my heart and grace from within
that lights every star

I long to hear you speak again
pretty words of love in gentle retrain,
just a word from you, on paper of blue
will tell me if the greatest love is true.

2007-01-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

Every slumber moment, just before entering a lassitude state. A lucid image appears when i thought of you, as angelic and ravishing as i saw, i could not help but to tear. You felt like as though you were dwelling in my heart. hitherto it may seem, it was a uncontrollable emotion. In the dark, you shine the brightest most would describe, but did not mention what you looked like in the light. I say in the dark you are unseen, as i close my eyes, i saw you, and in the light i wasn't able to see you. I want to tell you what a pleasent matriarch you are, if you could only let me start by saying how much i love you.

2007-01-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's worth going through.
But if it falls apart,
i will know deep in my heart,
the only dream that mattered had come true,
In this life i loved you.

2007-01-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

Everything i've done, i've done only for your love.
Everything i am, i am in hopes your heart will move.

i know that you love someone else, but while you're away
i'll love you just as though our love
would last till you are grey

till you and i are grey, my love,
and all our days are done, i'll love you just as i do now
Your heart's my only home.

2007-01-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

Until the oceans all run dry,
until the stars fall from the sky,
even if the words don't seem to rhyme
i'll be addicted to your smile.

And if the wind blows out the sun,
i'll still believe you are the one
No matter what we're going through
i'll plan to spend my nights with you.

I promise you my heart won't fade
i swear to you my soul always,
it isn't haard to understand
you're making me a better man.

2007-01-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

2007-01-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back in singapore, after such a long vacation in indonesia. Spent 1 and half months with my uncle and aunt up there and admiring the magnificent scenery from where we stayed. The sun rays piercing through the think clouds sky, a definate sight and in the evening, the reddish purple outlining of the clouds i was enthralled by. An unseen nature in singapore. The unforgettable nature i encounted was the waterfall. ice chilling i felt running down my warm blooded body. Thinking of an exoctic place to relax your mind and really enjoy the natural view, indonesia is a place to consider. Gosh, i miss that place.

A powerful attraction

2006-11-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

Her magnetic grandiloguent personality,

subjugates my soul, a sublime emotion runs through my heart.

An angelic countenance before me,

she is astoundingly gorgeous and dazzling.

She could be a result of serendipity,

she could also tantalise me.

I pray a prayer,

thanking the Lord what a ravishing lady,

He has untrusted me with.

An unanswered prayer yet to be heard,

she would be part of not only my life,

my heart as well.

It's intuition i tremble upon,

draw this agony away from the river that sustains me.

To end this,

the phrase that suits her perfectly,

I love you.

2006-10-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

getting closer to the final day

2006-10-10T12:07:00.000+08:00

The days are counted, the clock is constantly ticking. Within a few more days, calculated hours, would be the last exam i'm going to sit for in my secondary school. Didn't attend school for the past few weeks, i was malingering as it is not only a waste of time studying in school now, it is also distracting. Studying in the comfort of my home, is the only way i can concentrate on the piece of work i'm doing. rather than the aggravating noise and classmates in school, why not an alternative? So, thats why it's home i'm in and not school. So school, i apologise for my absence, but i'll reap the results and produce a 10 point to prove to you that what you have taught me the past few years has not gone down the drain or washed away by some mothernature insane diseaster.

chemistry paper day

2006-09-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

it was chemistry that i sat for today. After weeks of assiduous mugging, it finally paid off. it was rather easy compared to my mids. Still have my o's to conquer, feeling a little perplexed on what activities to do after o's. haha, can't wait for this anxiety to pass by and get over with it once and for all. hope i don't screw up this time, my last time i'm ever sitting for a secondary school exam.

2006-09-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

It's a piteous she didn't open the door,
ebony hair she posesses
prevailing countenance,
oblivious to grotesque facades.
i see her every second, bigoted emotions
how i yearn to see her, just a glimpse
would satisfy my contentment.

i love you

2006-09-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

An agony that haunts me,
yet it's undeniably seen.
The sight of the torment,
the sound of ghoulish cries.
I whispered a slient prayer,
forgive me as i bowed in contrition.
The final words were spoken,
all pulverized, annihilate.

about her

2006-09-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

In you i see beauty, a bonny feature well in born. Perfection creates the fininshing touches. What a ravishing sight i glance at, i have to admit that you are a gorgious matriarch. Manipulating my heart, touching the core of my soul, you mean absolute significance. It's an honour to have you a part of my life.

A wednesday during the sep holidays

2006-09-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

Waking up with general fatigue and lassitude, i dragged my dreamy self to the washroom and clean up before i began a wednesday. Studied in the morning for a short period and went off for lunch with my uncle and aunty. Went to a jap resturant with was costly, yet lunch was important. finished the sumptious meal at about 1 to 2, and headed for funan. Got whatever i wanted and thats it, home was next. had to rush for training which was miles away, gosh, a hectic day boy. Came home exhausted and didn't have energy to study. thanks to all the activities from today, i have to sleep early. so goodnight.

2006-09-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

You're afraid, it's all come down
to this place where dreams have fallen to the ground
just look up, you'll make it through
Cause there's a heavenly Being
That's watching over you

Calling down an angel who
Will help you believe
Sending out a prayer
Down on my knees
Reaching up to heaven knowing
You will someday see
There's hope beyond the struggle
Just hold on

I'm calling down an angel

It's not too late
It's almost over
If you'll just wait you'll feel it lifting off your shoulder
So keep believing
The sun always promises a new day
It'll stop the rain
Break the chains
And chase the pain away

You've been trying to be strong
You've been waiting for so long
Will your miracle ever come
Heaven's holding every single tear you cry
And if you start to feel alone just know that I am

Teachers day

2006-08-31T22:06:00.000+08:00

31 aug, teachers day it is, had a gargantuan celebration in school. First thing in the morning, we had an exercise crap. Aces day they call it, it was a short session tho, moving on to the games after that. i played handball where players had to score the ball into a goal post with our hands. it was a game that was a combination of basketball cum netball. It was fun and enjoyable, unfortunatly we were allowed to play it once, to give others a chance to play. Today wasn't that mirth, the concert put up by our very own coral schoolmate somehow dampant our teacher's day spirits. It was even 10 percent entertaining. Yorning and fidgetating restlessly everyone was, enduring the insipid performance. It was suppose to end at 12 noon, but it was dragged on to half pass 12. i'm glad it finally came to culmination and we could exit the school. Thank God it wasn't a full day event.

today

2006-08-29T16:36:00.000+08:00

Catapulted out of bed! Headed to the wash room, took a quick shower and off i went to the bus stop. i actually woke up mintues earlier, but felt a little lackadaisical and didn't want to get out of bed so early, i faced the consequnce in the end. Had to rush down to the bus stop just to catch the 7 am bus. This recurrent nonsense has happened to me thousand and one times, still i feel so indolent. To compensate that, the day was a little kinder. Did not have to bump into some pusillanimous people like what happened last night during night class. This guy by the name of 'james', a nom de plume, had no other people to mingle and entertain to, decided to pick a fight with our group. He flung vitriolic words at us which means, he was ready to stir an arguement. Yong wei, the guy armed with guts and boldness, walked up to him and confronted him, with clanched fist and a stern expression as a facade. Man, no other drama or serial movie would be better then this. It ending again with just a mere forget, without the forgive. At least today wasn't that bad, james just glared at us with a face filled with hatred.

2006-08-26T10:31:00.000+08:00

As i'm writing this passage, i recall yesterday's activities. As a gregarious person, i went for a run with jeryl, shui min and ah sheng. It was no ordinary run, it was similar to a cross country run i guess. we started the run at the rear of jeryl's block, and off we went to conquer pasir ris park. We ran en masse due to the late hour and we didn't want anything to happen to each other. We ran pass the row of flats and into the entrance of the park. It was rather murky and darkness was upon us. We could hardly see what was in front of us till the first lamp post, well we had faith that nothing would occur that would turn us into hapless people. Our destination for the first pit stop was elias mall, which was situated right outside the exit of the park. We had our beverages at 7 eleven and they still had the energy to serve us in the middle of the night or would i say in the early part of the morning. Right after the refreshing drink, we continued our journey home. We arrived at the playground at about half pass 11, and we had a little warm down session before heading home. I wouldn't be taken aback if one of us will experience aches or cramps today.

if you had a bad day

2006-08-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

It was a normal school day that fell on a thursday, met ma bro in the morning at the 81 bus stop, as we address it, waiting in anticipation for the bus known as 359. Gosh! it takes yonks to arrive at the 81 bus stop, and it would cause a 3 hour reflection in school if we were late. but we thought of an alternative instead, either 81, 53, 39 or 109. But the former 3 are perpetually late, that leaves us with only 109. Thats how we save our ass from the 3 hour time 'waster'. Anyway, many indelible events happened this afternoon. fights it was, and i just can't understand why people have to resort to violence. Immatured the adults would describe these bunch of pesky teenagers, gathering at a certain location and catapulting insults at one another. In lame man terms ' still small'. well, in the end, everything was solve with a simple hand shake. ironic it may sound, that was how it ended. Thats the end of a thursday, where individuals journey home with hatred. what's the use. Sad innit.

the days activities

2006-08-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

As any other school day would be like, getting up for the lessons and everything is a chore. Catching the 7.00 bus is another thing i do each and every morning. Arriving school at about 7.15 to 7.20, a mere not so late comer, well just on time i would describe it, could prevent me from entering the room called the 'time wasting' room. The BMS room they call it.
It wasn't that bad after all, albeit it was a tiring wednesday. Having to face every single teacher for the next few months, will end me up in a poly, still have to give them some credit. Played basketball after classes and got myself drenched in pesperation, and yet we headed towards the gym, with ma gym companions. yeah, thats about it, thats my describtion of my day.

peace

2006-08-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

if i would to ask you to describe peace, how would you do it? When the word peace comes into ones mind, they immediatly think of a place where everything seems unruffled. They would paint a picture of a place filled with soft music, a comfortable couch sitting right in front of you them. The room would be air-conditioned, and the cool texture of the bed provides finishing touch of the picture. Some would paint a waterfall, like as though paradise they were in.
Well, for me, peace would be an ease to paint, but tough to understand. I would paint an erupted volcano and people scrambling for their lives. Ashes hurled miles and miles away. At the side of the picture, a little baby sleeping soundly in a cod. Despite all the beautiful surrounding, one could have burddens and a facade is what he/she is putting up. Despite the perilous volcano eruption, the baby is able to slummber peacefully. This is my discription of peace.

woah, would i call it a tiring day

2006-08-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

Today, the 11 of aug, a typical friday, just that it was right after three days of the national's birthday holiday. Had to grapple with a slight problem in the morning, you know, most teens would face this problem. The waking up part of the day. Still i had to drag myself to the worlds most boring place, the school, but man, there's still A LITTLE fun in school. [ notice the emphasize there]. well, it was a friday anyway, no worries. The dreadful day came to an end at a perfect time, 12.30 to be precise. BUT, up next was tuition, gosh! thats life i have to point out. The tuition 'centre' was like the distance from singapore to some isolated locations in malaysia! In a moment of exhaustion, that is what distance seemed. hahaha.. ironically, my destination was tanah merah. Go ahead and sigh, it will never be in malaysia. My bones would not only break, i would be lying in a coffin at the end of this year. An aircon filled room, a comfortable bed, feather liked pillow was what i craved for so badly, with a automatic massager would solve the equation. AND worse of all, tomorrow would be a hectic day as well. so, you know i've got to get to bed. goodnight.

2006-08-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

yeah! how's that

what a year to worry about

2006-08-10T11:18:00.000+08:00

living in a country like singapore, stress is part of an individual's life. Facing the fact would be the only way out. I would rather work to get a stable income, than having to live my life as someone who is impecunious in the future. Well, i wouldn't have to be the crème de la crème, i would just be a ordinary student, working my way up to get into a satisfying university. I obviously can't be assiduous, my mum would think i'm crazy, on the other hand, neither can i be lazing around at home, doing nothing. Man, i would become a sluggish person. At this point of time, the major O's is just round the corner. Crossing this hurdle would be a great sigh that i can take, that also depends on me. So, in that case, i've got to get back to staring at my books, and cracking my brains off with Q&As. see ya

a saturday

2006-07-22T17:19:00.000+08:00

The rays piercing through the slit of the curtains, rushing like urgent clouds releasing rain, the day was a saturday morning. With canaries gliding round and round the estate with freedom. i catapulted out of bed, remembering that i had something on at 10. i glance at the clock, and it was half past 9. i grabbed a slice of ready made peanut butter spread, and shot out of house. thankfully i wasn't a little late.

what a day to think of

2006-07-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

Gosh! how would i describe this hectic day, an inevitable incident happened and it almost made me curse the school for that. well, it wasn't completly the school's fault, i had the volition to decide to snip off my brown, long, eye touching hair. Man! they still did not have the right to just shave my hair off. if i had an oppotunity, i would have sank my fist right up the DMs ...........

2006-07-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

2006-07-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

Sweat rolling like as though clouds argently releasing rain without hesitation. Carrying tones of weights, trying every way to get those muscles toned up. This was an ordinary day spent at the tampines swimming complex, working out at the gym. 'Bo', my gym companion, had the same reasons for being present at the gym, albeit he was tempted by the chlorine filled water, just right in front of him. well, in the end, jeryl fell fell into temptation, and sooner or later we were swimming. It had been yonks since i stopped swimming, and this was the very first time i dipped into the pool every since i stopped swimming. This was the day i had a break from whatever thoughts i had and it is finally out of my thoughts for the time being.

2006-06-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

Every night as i slumber, i feel like as though i am tied up like a prisoner cut from his vision, kneeling with roped hands at the guillotine. With ghoulish people crowding round the podium anticipating the next move. It seems scary when this recurring image flashes through my thoughts every now and then. It would be difficult to describe the agony that i will have to go through. I just pray that during the process of kneeling in front of the blade, an angel would appear.

2006-06-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

If you're tired, just -->

2006-06-19T12:00:00.000+08:00

yeah!

2006-06-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

I didn't know that it would turn out this way, i didn't realized that angel had a filled heart. I opened the door slightly early, i'm so sorry i made you suffer.

2006-06-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

2006-06-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

A prayer to Him

2006-06-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

Dear God, i thank you for giving me life. I pray for all the wrong deeds i've made, i pray that You will forgive me for the things i have done that displeases You. You were there when i was happy, You were there even i had the most joyful moments of life, You were there when i was sad, You were there when my heart couldn't endure what it couldn't carry, i thank You for everything. The only thing i could repay You is to worship You with a full heart. i'm sorry Father. Please forgive me. Thank You. I love You FATHER.

God's goodness

2006-06-18T17:23:00.000+08:00

In what way is God good to us, why do people see that God doesn't exist in their life? In my opinion, they choose not to accept God's love. I have experienced Him in my life many many times. He works in ways that one cannot figure out why He does all this things. Some may feel that what He does, seems bad and they question, why is He doing this to me. The only answer i can offer is this, if your father were to scold you, hit you or says something about you, he is doing out of love. It's the same for God. If he loves us, He wouldn't do something to hurt us. To us, it may seem that He's provocative or even a callous God. Think again if ever this thought comes. Every drop of rain, every star-filled night, every bit of food, every good night's sleep, every minute of health. In short, every single thing that makes us happy and sustains us, is a gift from Him that represents His goodness.

my feelings towards her

2006-06-17T14:37:00.000+08:00

I see you each and everytime, i hear your voice like the howl of the wind. The sound of your voice wouldn't be just described as chocolates for the ears, it would be also described as the amount of comfort i feel as i absorb it. If a picture paints a thousand words, you would paint a thousand pictures. If you asked me who are you to me, i would say you are an angel from above, and everytime i close my eyes, i thank the Lord for you.

the presence of an unseen person

2006-04-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

Alright, this is how it goes. i feel his presences even when i'm asleep, how than can i not feel him when i'm awake? He sees me everyday and night and till the minutes, but what is He doing when we're asleep? strangly, He doesn't even sleep at all i suppose, then who is He? Imagine you were looking at someone, and that person looks back at you, both of you are able to see each other. wherelse, He can see us, but why can't we see Him? ironic it may sound, but thats the fact of a christian's faith. faith is believeing without having to see, and that one person whom we cannot see is God, and just this passage seem so complex, there's more in the walk with God. And those people who loves finding out mysterious clues and hidden facts, He is one person that you may consider searching for. it will never END.

basketball

2006-04-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

Have you ever seen iverson or t mac dunk the ball right in front of your face. the power of the dunk and the release of the ring right after he dunks. The best way to release all sorts of anger in you, is to throw all your strength and might into that ring. BAM, in a blink of a eye, the ball is transported from one side of the ring to the other. punk to the maximum

look at the root at the problem first

2006-04-19T17:31:00.000+08:00

there was a little boy who was sitting by the road side, one sweltering afternoon. He was throwing stones on both side of the road. fortunatly he didn't hit any on coming vehicle. he sitted there throwing stones from noonday all the way till the sun went down, till the evening. this time he wasn't that fortunate, ater long hours of throwing, he hit a car. The driver stopped his vehicle, stepped out of the car and walked towards him with a crossed countence. As soon as the driver reached the boy, his facial expression changed completely. He saw a lady laid behind him. The little boy was seeking attention just to get help for his dying mother.